When is it time to let go? When do you stop hoping and believing? It’s such a hard thing to know and to do. In those early months, after the end of my marriage, I felt like I was in limbo. Was God going to turn this whole situation around and restore our marriage, with this becoming our testimony? Or was this someone with a free will making a choice that ultimately I just had to bear the consequences of? At first, I honestly didn’t know. As a Christian with two young babies, I didn’t want to just give up on my marriage but at the same time I didn’t want to compromise my values just to keep my marriage together at any cost.
Just trust Me.
One of the things that God showed me is that He knows a person’s heart better than anyone else and He knows what’s going to happen in the future. Instead of fretting and going on the emotional roller coaster ride of “will we or won’t we”, and being affected by every little thing, I chose to just throw myself into God and taking care of the kids, while still keeping my heart open to whatever God was going to do…either way.
Six months after separating, something happened to which I felt a definite severing inside. It’s over. I knew it then and there and, in that moment, I knew I had to fully let go. No more hoping or believing…just trusting. Another six months later, my then husband had moved to another city to be with his partner. God knew this was going to happen and, in His kindness, had let me know when to let go, to protect and prepare me.
Trusting God also requires walking in obedience.
Your story may or may not have a completely different ending to mine but regardless of the outcome, it’s a journey of trust and obedience. When you place yourself solely in God’s hands and trust Him with the outcome, He will lead and guide you along each step of the way. It’s important that we listen and obey and not just take things into our own hands and do things in our own strength, expecting God to bless it. Easier said than done sometimes I know!
Proverbs 3:5-6 says, “Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek His will in all you do, and He will show you which path to take.” Trying to figure everything out on our own will leave us in a state of confusion and riding that emotional roller coaster. God promises to show us the right path when we trust Him with our whole heart and life…and with that comes great peace.
Your circumstances may have changed, but God’s plans for your life have not.
God is so faithful and, regardless of what curveball life has thrown you, His plans for your life remain the same…to give you a future and a hope (Jer 29:11). I am a living testimony to this! Whatever your situation or outcome…you can trust God with your heart, you can trust God with your life, you can trust God with your kids. You may not know what the future holds but I love what Corrie Ten Boom once said, “Never be afraid to trust an unknown future to a known God.”
He’s got you.